I feel like I'm back into one of the old phases I had in my life.
Except this time without the suicidal thoughts....hopefully.

I feel clouded in the dark and I can't seem to find the light.

Basically, I have no clue what to do with my life. I can't seem to figure out what I want anymore. Yeah, I want to graduate college, get my degree, work and continue on in life. But it isn't as easy as it seems. I don't know how I'm gonna graduate college. Well yeah....study, pass classes and graduate. But what am I going to study in? What's my major?

Right now I'm under Computer Science and Engineering, but is that what I really want to do for the rest of my life? I'm really not feeling a future for myself programming every single day of my life. Hell, right now I don't even know if I can pass my current programming class, which is why I'm debating inside my head whether or not to drop it. I have until April 25th to decide.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

- Timo Cruz
Coach Carter

But where is my light?