The Night

People have always asked why I stay up so late and usually my reply is "No reason."
But there actually is.

To me night is the only time I can have to myself. There's this unspeakable closeness that I have with the night. It's the time where I can be myself and have nothing to worry about. It's the time where I can relax and think. It's the time where I can feel that I belong.

But at times the night reminds me of solitude. It makes me wonder why I am alone in this world. It tells me that I am a lost soul wandering with no destination in mind. It makes me wonder how I'm still living through a life that isn't 'me.'

And sometimes I feel like I am the night and the night is me.

There are lights that light the way for night, but they disappear when day returns. Night will never have the full glow.

後備情人

後備情人

作曲: VTX
填詞: VTX
編曲: VTX、小張
主唱: VTX

愛要保鮮有限期
暫放冰箱一刻的顧忌
可惜得不到你的歡喜
但我仍然迷戀你

期望我每次有新的朝氣
為你增添繽紛的趣味
再衷心祝福你的知己
是我仍然還想你

*寧願做你後備
不要妒忌
捨棄我又輸不起
場面到了絕地
心痛乏味
是我又我沒法抽離
每次看手機
message太傷悲
就是沒這福氣
尋回傷心筆記

我怕與她相比美
漸覺欠缺許多的韻味
彷彿玻璃相隔的心霏
像我難逃離空氣

Repeat *

你過去原來是太過吸引
不甘心從前又會身心抖震
明白了愛你需一生
無悔我又太過傷心

誰知道有後備
不要躲避
分數我又攀不起
情感怕有異味
揮霍演技
沒有自信害怕分離
仲會有轉機
似看到天機
命運或有希冀
尋求一絲真理

原因我有預備
夢想演一齣好戲

取消資格

To my surprise.....F小姐 actually told me more about herself. More in a sense of revealing her current relationship status. Basically after a conversation with her, I know I don't stand a chance at winning her heart. Considering the fact that she has her heart set on a particular guy already. Also found out the type of guys she likes. ABC personality but dresses HK style.

「當選了是他　我認輸　都不可怕
最怕其實被取消資格
還不知道　拚命掙扎」

我已經被『取消資格。』

靠近...淚

「坐在沒有人的角落　　
我又問自己
究竟應該繼續還是該放棄
沒有人能了解我現在的心情
想看你　
想躲你　　
難以決定」

「多少眼淚都無所謂」
但是
「我閉上眼睛不能入睡」
因為我
「只希望你給我一些安慰」

Why can't I just get fucking drunk so I don't need to fucking think??

-______-"'"

There are times when I really wished that I didn't think that much.

I haven't feel this happy or excited in awhile.
An unexpected thing happened today.

F小姐 took me out to dinner o_o.

I was so not expecting it at all. But when I saw her say "今晚同你去Zen Toro吧" I literally jumped out of my seat and was smiling like a maniac. It really never occurred to me that she would make such a statement.

Sometimes it makes me wonder if she knows or feels something. But most probably to her its just a normal thing. 係我自己發夢。

Dinner was just us two =] Got to know her better, but still can't say I actually know her know her. Everything now is still surface information. Hopefully one day I will get to know her more.

難以忘記初次見你　一雙迷人的眼睛
在我腦海裡　你的身影　揮散不去
只怕我自己會愛上你　不敢讓自己靠得太近
怕我沒什麼能夠給你　愛你也需要很大的勇氣
只怕我自己會愛上你　也許有天會情不自禁
想念只讓自己苦了自己　愛上你是我情非得已


P.S. She paid by the way. -_-" Makes me feel kinda bad even if she did say it was to thank me for editing her paper.