身邊每一個人都是一對或快成了一對。
但我還是一個人。
一個沒有人喜歡的人。
一個沒有喜歡的人的人。
雖然有很多很多朋友﹐但我還感覺很孤寂。

Emptiness

Watching friends one by one getting together with other people.
Talking with friends on how to handle dates.
Learning through friends that who and who are dating.
Seeing people around me walking together in pairs.

Shows me that I am missing something and I can't help feeling empty because of it.

我現在是快樂, 真的。
但是我不是真正的快樂。

"我的笑只是我穿的保護色"

I have decided to drop Computer Science and Engineering. Changing both my major and college. I will be changing it to Communications, Chinese, and Psychology major. Yep, triple major. Either that or double major plus a minor. Now enough about academics, but if you want to know more, I don't mind talking more about it in the near future.

So thoughts that are running through my mind right now....
Many and not a lot. Oh the irony.
Life has been very....quiet and uninteresting for me lately. But it is a good thing in a way. But people are hypocrites. When there's a bunch of crap bothering them they want it all to stop. But when there isn't anything happening in their life, they want something to happen. And that's me right now. I'm trying to spice up my life, I mean it is college after all right? But meh, not much really going on in the social and love aspect of my life. Besides of course joining APIQ and meeting some new people. But haven't really gotten close to those people. I mean tried, but...*shurgs* haven't really gotten far.

And interestingly enough....from previous happenings in my life, the love aspect of it that is, I would somehow be infatuated with someone that I barely know that I think is cute (even though I know my taste are quite different than most people). But so far into this quarter.....there is someone I think is cute, but I'm not infatuated. At least not yet and from the processing of my thoughts lately....it doesn't seem to be affected. Or if I think a little bit more into this...could this be a sign of some sort? Hah. I wish, but not gonna go there, at least not for now. But I do wonder if there is a chance......

Oh well.

Life's all good for me now. I'm content. So we'll just leave it at that for now.


P.S. The name of the person I think is cute is K a y l e e η W a n g (google better not popup this blog as a search result is she ever decides to google her own name...) 王 翎 竹

I think that the one of the head coordinator for APIQ is really damn cute! xD
Yeah, I just needed to blog this, hahaha xD
Because she is so damn cute!

Been Awhile....

I know it has been a long while since I've made a post. Current it is 1:21am and I have my alarm set at 8:20am so that's less than 7 hours of sleep. But I just feel the need to make at least a small update here.

School has started again so I'm back in Davis, away from San Diego. And it couldn't be better. The quarter is going fine so far and housemates are all cool. Met some new friends of all standings. And got to know some friends even better. After the course of summer, I have decided that this year I will focus mainly on academics. But of course I will still have my social life. I am not going to set up any hopes this year for any relationship stuff. But like they always say, expect the unexpected. Whether or not my love life takes a turn this year, time can only tell. But for now, I won't take the initiative to find myself a love life. Just gonna let it flow~~