Valentine's Day is coming up soon. I thought about being a mystery person and sending Heki something.....But I'm having lots of second thoughts about it.

I want to send her something to let her know that she has a Valentine and she won't be having a lonely Valentine's Day. But on the other hand, I don't want to because I'm scared she'll find out that I'm the mystery person. Yeah, at one point I wanted her to know I like her, but now since we're going to be living together for 3 years.....I'm having second thoughts.

I haven't moved my feelings for her in either direction. But I can't just let it go just like that. The only for that to happen is if I find a new target. Which isn't impossible....but the chances of that happening in the very near future is really slim. Yet I can't pursue my feelings for her because it would seem very awkward. Heck, I don't even know if she minds, but at least I don't think she does.

But these past 2 weekends have been really neat. I don't feel as alone anymore. There are people I can actually talk to about my relationships stuff and will actually understand =]. These aren't really new friendships, but rather more developed friendships. Getting to know these people more is awesome. And basically I'm out to more people now. Yet the funny thing is....pretty much all my future roommates know I'm not straight....except for Heki o_o.

Oh, the irony of life.