Down

I'm suddenly feeling down once again. Sometimes I wish a lot of my posts weren't so depressing. But the only for that is cause I don't have anyone to share things with, hence why the posts are usually depressing. I don't even know why I'm feeling down. But I do wish for someone to care for me. It seems like I only belong when I'm wanted. But even so, it seems I'm only around to be useful. They try to include me in whatever they're joking with, but if it doesn't fit, then it just doesn't fit. I don't even know what I'm talking about anymore. I just wish there was someone there for me where I can just call them up anytime and know that they'll be there for me. Just hearing their voice would make me feel better.

But there isn't anyone like that in my life. There's a wall up that I don't seem to be conscious of until I think about it. When will this wall be climbed again? Is there really someone who will be willing to climb it? I really hope so, otherwise one day the wall will be blown up and nothing will exist anymore.