The Night

People have always asked why I stay up so late and usually my reply is "No reason."
But there actually is.

To me night is the only time I can have to myself. There's this unspeakable closeness that I have with the night. It's the time where I can be myself and have nothing to worry about. It's the time where I can relax and think. It's the time where I can feel that I belong.

But at times the night reminds me of solitude. It makes me wonder why I am alone in this world. It tells me that I am a lost soul wandering with no destination in mind. It makes me wonder how I'm still living through a life that isn't 'me.'

And sometimes I feel like I am the night and the night is me.

There are lights that light the way for night, but they disappear when day returns. Night will never have the full glow.