Dear Kai,

I tried, I really did. I know I did some wrong. I'm not perfect, what can you expect right? And here I'm am trying to mend things and clear up the air. But what does she do? Nothing. I said I wouldn't try anymore, but here I am still trying. I know whenever I say negative things, I tend to never do them. That's how I am and she should have known. I'm fucking trying really damn hard to fix this. Because for all I know, I sorta start this, not purposely of course. I was just expressing my emotions out on my xanga. I didn't expect anyone to read it, because no one ever does anymore, aside from net friends who still do update their xanga.

Gor...I'm really tied. I'm physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausted. I honestly don't know how much long I can hold up anymore....I'm trying really hard right now to keep everything in and not breakdown...

Tell me what I should do......

- Drained