我還在等什麼

我還在等什麼?
我也想知道答案。

陳豪 ─ 我還在等什麼
作曲：楊毅　
作詞：張美賢

得到這麼多　怎麼感覺未快樂
走得這麼近　是否真正沒隔膜
開心這麼多　為何活著如幻覺
爛醉擁抱哼句歌　然後又　又怎麼

前行萬里捨不了當初　你早掉低我　但沒有別離過
旁人帶著艷羨　來說實在期望想做我
但我一顆心　卻永遠反鎖

人來人離這麼多　從來無人進入心窩
永遠記住前事我也覺得折磨　如早已預知的後果
如何看清楚　日落提示分針下的歲月如梭
若果繼續這樣傻　我都失笑感觸我
看著時日過　我還在等什麼

最熟悉的陌生人

Lately, I've been watching a lot of 超級偶像 and so far my favorite section is 唱給最愛的人, in which the choose a song they sing for the person they love. After watching it, I had thoughts, if I was in that position, what song would I sing and for who? First was thinking for my parents, but I couldn't think of a song. But then someone else came to mind and a song too. If you still read this, I think you should know I'm talking about you, haha. It's a sad song, but its not I haven't moved on. It's just.......that it's true. The song title speaks for itself.

最熟悉的陌生人
作詞：姚謙　
作曲：柯肇雷　
編曲：Azlan Abu Hassan

還記得嗎　窗外那被月光染亮的海洋
你還記得嗎　是愛讓彼此把夜點亮
為何後來我們　用沉默取代依賴
曾經朗朗星空　漸漸陰霾　嗯～

＃心碎離開　轉身回到最初荒涼裡等待
　為了寂寞　是否找個人填心中空白
　我們變成了世上　最熟悉的陌生人
　今後各自曲折～　各自悲哀～

△只怪我們愛得那麼洶湧　愛得　那麼深
　於是夢醒了擱淺了沉默了揮手了　卻回不了神
　如果當初在交會時能忍住了　激動　的靈魂
　也許今夜我不會讓自己在思念裡　沉淪

Repeat　＃,△

我們變成了世上　最熟悉的陌生人
今後各自曲折～　各自悲哀～

只怪　我們愛得那麼洶湧　愛得　那麼深
於是夢醒了擱淺了沉默了揮手了　卻回不了神
如果當初在交會時　能忍住了　激動　的靈魂
也許今夜我不會讓自己在思念裡　沉淪

也許今夜我不會讓　自己在思念裡　沉淪～

Losing Balance

It's been awhile since I made a blog post. And that's because I've been pretty busy. I haven't even kept updated with my Chinese blog that I have to write for class. Oh well.

But I've been losing my balance in life. I'm a full time student, taking 21 units this quarter (5 classes), working a part-time job, and involved with a club and some events of other clubs. Busy right? The whole point of trying to make myself to so busy was to not let myself have time to feel/think about things that I don't have in life right now. But it isn't working. In fact, its doing the opposite of what I wanted to do and all this work is taking a toll on me now.

I read some of my old posts before I decided to blog. And I'm seeing patterns. There always seem to be a period where I wonder if my existence really matters in this world. Now I feel that I've reached the stage of wanting emotional attachment and emotional belonging and I wouldn't give a care to what anyone feels/thinks and what not.

I've always known that I would most probably place love ahead of anything else. 重色輕友, something I say to my friends that I wouldn't do, but I know in the end that I will. I try my best to please everyone, but I guess in the end it doesn't seem to matter because in the end whatever I did, its taken for granted by almost everyone.

Like they say, "nice guys finish last." And I guess that applys not to just guys.