Dear Kai,

I don't know how much more I can take. Two pieces of shocking news in the same week and one right another. If I receive another one within these next 2 weeks.....I don't know if I will be able to handle it. I don't know what's worse. To find the second piece to be true or a joke. If its true, then I'll just be healing internally from being sad. But if it was a joke, I would be angry and feel once again, betrayed. A feeling I never want to experience ever again, because if that is the case.....my trust in those few people will be broken, and hard to repair. Honestly, am I being put through a test? If so, why me? How I wish you were here by my side and comforting me.....I don't know how much more I can take....I don't know how to pull through this.....

- Hurt