I think she knows now. I think she knows that I'm not straight. A part of me feels kinda relax that she knows now, yet it hasn't been confirmed if she minds or not. If I don't get that confirmation...I'll still feel kinda unsure how to act around her.

Today, Toby, Joan, Peggy, Laura, Heki and I were just hanging out. We sat in Thompson lounge and talked...or at least attempt to find topics to talk about. Basically Joan was bringing up all the questions and directing them towards Heki, Peggy and Laura to answer. Well...it was directed towards everyone but those three talked the least. During this "hea" period.....I noticed that Heki didn't seem too open to give much details about stuff she said. Maybe its cause I know she takes awhile to warm up to people. I'm just one of those exceptions.

Also, during this whole night I would take glimpses of her....and sometimes I would see her look my way. Maybe I can finally let go and let it flow and just be friends with her without having other thoughts. Cause during this whole glimpsing.... I felt like I can let go of her and just be friends now. Hopefully I'm right.

Oh....and I found out the attributes she looks for in an ideal partner. They must be taller than her, have something that they're good at, be good in badminton, and some other stuff I don't quite remember. Since the three I already listed.......I would never be able to fulfill them. So....why should I even bother continuing thinking that I still have a minor chance?

Time to let go.