It's pretty much 90% confirmed that I will be living with Heki and Peggy. Knowing myself, if I am bound to see the person or talk to the person more in the future, I will not allow myself to do anything out of the ordinary, ie. allowing Heki to know about my feelings for her. I told Peggy about my feelings for Heki during winter break, but whether or not she remembers remains a mystery to me because she said that she usually forgets about it after she wakes up. Since she hasn't brought up the topic or anything of the sort, I'll just leave it as if she hasn't forgotten it and doesn't know.

I was reading my textbook and somehow I drifted off to start daydreaming. Although this was at like 2 in the morning, so whether its daydreaming or not is debatable. Basically my mind wandered off to picturing myself in a relationship with another person rather than Heki. And this person was Taiwanese. Why is it significant that the person has to be Taiwanese? Well....because my mandarin ain't that great, thus when Heki first heard it, she laughed. Which is now why I won't speak any mandarin when I am with Heki, Peggy or Laura.

But during that "daydreaming," I wondered what reactions I would receive if the person suddenly called me while I was with Heki and Peggy and I answered in mandarin and was sweet talking. Peggy's reactions wouldn't concern me as much as Heki's though. I can wonder all I want...but that's about all I can do. Will it happen, is another story.